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Susan J. Tweit
ROOTS AND WINGS: POETRY CONVEYS THE "JIZZ" OF LIFE
An Essay


Poetry is words on a page nibbling at the edge of something vast.

--Bill Kloefkorn, former Poet Laureate of Nebraska

 

 

 

 

It was an April afternoon and I was dozing, lulled by the hum of the tires on the asphalt on our drive home to rural Colorado from a Saturday of errands in the big city. We had just topped 10,000-foot-high Kenosha Pass and dropped into the tawny lake of windswept grasslands on the other side when my husband, Richard, lifted a hand from the steering wheel to point at the prairie alongside the highway: “Look!”

 

There, standing on blue-gray legs were six shorebirds, probing the soil with outrageously long beaks that drooped like surrealist darning needles. The mottled brown and tan pattern of their backs blended perfectly with the light and shadow pattern of the winter-bleached grasses.

 

“Long-billed curlews!” I whipped my head around to watch them as we whizzed by.

 

I hadn’t seen long-billed curlews in at least ten years, but I knew them instantly. My mind took in the details of skinny-legged shorebirds with proportionately small heads, bills equal to fully half their body length and down-curved like elongated grizzly bear claws, plumage colored and patterned like weathered grass, standing in the shortgrass prairie and poking about for insects to eat, and it came up with long-billed curlew.

 

I was drawing on what birdwatchers call “jizz,” the sum of a few distinctive characteristics of appearance, behavior, and habitat that convey the birds’ essence, the flash of who-they-are, in less time than it takes to read this sentence. That kind of lightning-fast recognition comes from experience, from observing and paying attention in a way that makes the “other,” no matter their species, known, no longer strange.

 

Poetry has its own form of jizz, using just a few words and carefully chosen metaphors to convey something essential of our understanding of other lives, our connection to landscapes familiar or foreign, our place in the world.

 

A thin new moon struggles

over the brooding cliffs

and glitters, askew

in the brimming water. Shadows lurk

in the cottonwoods. A night creature

slides into the clearing,

moves toward the river, seems to bend,

drink. It blends into sighing night,

the haunted canyon,

its warm wind,

crescent moon, shadows,

deep-throated song of water.

 

That’s David Lee, portraying “Zion Narrows” in So Quietly the Earth. And here’s another canyon in Primus St. John’s “If There Were No Days, Where Would We Live” in his book Communion:

 

There is nothing more beautiful

than coming out of a canyon

water all around you,

the temperature slapping your face

like it was a baby’s ass,

otters & porcupines hovering

like the opposite ends of grace.

 

One canyon is all shadows, “deep-throated song of water” and thin moonlight, a place of mystery, fear, and magic. The other is all daylight and irreverent joy, slapping you like a swat on the butt with images of sleek otters and spiny porcupines. Each poem has a distinct jizz and thus a distinct and new connection and understanding for each place. That’s the gift of poetry: enough detail to root us in the specifics, like shadows that lurk in cottonwoods, not just any anonymous tree, and the clear image of “otters & porcupines.” Those specifics ground us in the landscape of the poem. And the metaphor in each poem gives us wings as well, letting the poem fly loose into every life it touches, and into our shared experience.

 

Seeing those long-billed curlews the other afternoon, I was startled, not just from my doze, but into a new understanding of the landscape where they stood. I knew these big shorebirds in my childhood from the seas of grass and sagebrush that make up the parts of the Great Plains and Great Basin where they nest in summer, arid landscapes whose only “shores” are metaphoric ones. I hadn’t known curlews from the thin air of mountain grasslands like the one we were driving through, a miles-wide lake of windswept prairie at 10,000 feet.

 

The sight of the curlews conjured up memories of a childhood trip to eastern Colorado. The sun rising, huge and round and tinted pastel pink, over the relentlessly level horizon of the western Great Plains as the sound of long-billed curlews’ plaintive whistling calls, “cur-lew, cur-lew!” woke me in my flannel sleeping bag. The earthy smell of damp soil under my cheek that afternoon as I lay in the grass, immersed in a book, while my brother and father searched for a curlew nest camouflaged in plain sight on the ground, and the birds’ calls rose and fell in the hot, still air.

 

Poetry’s evocation of the jizz of a particular place or life can startle us into a new understanding, the way that quick glimpse of the long-billed curlews enriched my image of the high-mountain grasslands my husband and I whizz through on our regular trips to the big city. Now I know them as places curlews stop in spring.

 

In “The Dipper,” Mary Oliver evokes such a transcendent moment:

 

Once I saw

in a quick-falling, white-veined stream,

among the leafed islands of the wet rocks,

a small bird, and knew it

 

from the pages of a book; it was

the dipper, and dipping he was,

as well as, sometimes, on a rock-peak, starting up

the clear, strong pipe of his voice; at this,

 

there being no words to transcribe, I had to

bend forward, as it were,

into his frame of mind, catching

everything I could in the tone,

 

cadence, sweetness, and briskness

of his affirmative report.

Though not by words, it was

a more than satisfactory way to the

 

bridge of understanding.

. . . Since that hour I have lived

 

simply,

in the joy of the body as full and clear

as falling water; the pleasures of the mind

like a dark bird dipping in and out, tasting and singing.

 

Long-billed curlews were once abundant, their whistling songs echoing across prairie and sagebrush in spring and summer. Now they are rare, their numbers devastated by market hunting in earlier decades and their habitat destroyed by agriculture and development.

 

I haven’t seen more than two dozen long-billed curlews in my life, but on those few occasions when I have spotted these big shorebirds, the sight of their bleached-grass-colored bodies and down-curved bills bring me right home to the shortgrass prairie and sagebrush plains. Curlews seem to me poets of the West’s windswept interior spaces, their lives conveying the sense of the vast, treeless landscapes populated by few humans but many other species. In that way, long-billed curlews are as necessary as poetry, bringing us the jizz of what we otherwise cannot know, yet must understand if we are to thrive in this world we share with those so unlike us in every conceivable way, but so necessary to our existence.

 

Life itself is “something vast” - the myriad forms it takes, the grand cycle from birth to death and then to birth again in some entirely new life, the puzzle of our place in it. Life sometimes seems so vast and incomprehensible that we get lost in ourselves. By conveying the jizz of life in word and metaphor the way birds convey it in plumage and form, posture and place, poetry gifts us with flashes of comprehension and connection essential to our understanding of who we are and where we fit. It roots us in life, and gives us curlews’ wings to fly on.